Surrender by Elana Johnson

Release Date: June 5, 2012

Synopsis Stolen From Goodreads:

Forbidden love, intoxicating power, and the terror of control…

Raine has always been a good girl. She lives by the rules in Freedom. After all, they are her father’s rules: He’s the Director. It’s because of him that Raine is willing to use her talent—a power so dangerous, no one else is allowed to know about it. Not even her roommate, Vi.

All of that changes when Raine falls for Gunner. Raine’s got every reason in the world to stay away from Gunn, but she just can’t. Especially when she discovers his connection to Vi’s boyfriend, Zenn. Raine has never known anyone as heavily brainwashed as Vi. Raine’s father expects her to spy on Vi and report back to him. But Raine is beginning to wonder what Vi knows that her father is so anxious to keep hidden, and what might happen if she helps Vi remember it. She’s even starting to suspect Vi’s secrets might involve Freedom’s newest prisoner, the rebel Jag Barque….

So last year when I went on a pretty big Dystopia kick Possession by Elana Johnson was read.  Looking back on that review, I think I would really like to re-read that book, and see if it confuses me less.  Coincidentally I will have a bit more time this summer for reading, so could take the necessary time to really focus on the book.  Either way, I am still totally, totally looking forward to the sequel, Surrender.  Which is more of a companion novel and its told from a different POV.  FYI – it releases next tuesday on June 5!  Go pre order immediately!

Elena Johsnon is hosting a blog tour for her book release, and I being all giddy and excited about this sequel/companion novel am jumping on the bandwagon super early!

All you have to do is blog about a time you didn’t surrender. Trained for a marathon? Queried agents? Had to study for an entrance exam? I’m looking for inspirational stories that you have experienced. Hard things you’ve accomplished because you didn’t give up. I want to be inspired by you!

So in summary – NEVER SURRENDER!

GAH! This is hard, because writing about these things is hindsite.  I have gotten through them, they are no longer as challenging becuase I have survived them and know I could do them again.  But I’m going to pick 2 that really stand out for me.

1) Writing.  

I always knew that I wanted to write.  But I grew up in a household where practically was encouraged, so after having a few of my dreams rained on I kept this one all to myself.  I adored books, never went anywhere without one, and when life got to shit, curled up inside a book until I felt better.  #BooksSave

So I did the practical thing and got a day job that I was relatively good at, but cared little for.   Cowboy and I had moved back to my hometown, and my highschool friends weren’t really my friends any longer.  I was lonely and new I needed a change.

NaNoWriMo.  Okay so it wasn’t really that easy but it kind of was.  I had just learned about blogs and finding writing advise online and really any writing advice I read at the time was the equivlant to Scripture.  But this particular advise said find a writing comunity, if you can’t find one local, then look online, and so I tried finding both.  NaNoWriMo was both, an online thing and with a local chapter.  I only had to wait from August for it to start. I signed up right away!

I joined, and it was possibly the best thing that has ever happened to me.  I participate in two local writing groups, my best friend is a wannabe just like me, and I also ML for NaNoWriMo now.

There have been moments, where I have questioned my need to write.  I mean some of the shit from my first NaNoWriMo, was just that. Garbage.  Dribble.  Consciousness floating onto the page with not clear direction.  I still strugle to fiinish a project.  I get to that point where I could, but because I am a perfectionist, I want to go back to the start and make it better before I write the end.

I have not surrendered though.  I have kept pluging away at this goal.  If I didn’t have the friends I have because of writing our my writing groups though, it might have been anotehr story.  The temptation to just give up might have been stronger.  Then again I am a headstrong person, with a avery determined streak in her.

Honestly, if I didn’t have writing I wouldn’t have a dream, and if I don’t have a dream, then life is just meaningless.  And I don’t do meaningless.  I am not the type who can sit by and watch there life go by and not do anything about it.  I like goals and reaching for them and making them come true and taking on challenges that push me to be more, and get out of my comfort zone to discover my limits.

2) Running.

So you know that thing I just said about pushing myself.  Running is one of those things.  But it is more physical than writing.  It makes your lungs squeeze and your legs hurt and you feel it in your muscles.  And it is also a mind game.  It is telling yourself you can keep going, when all you really want to do is stop.

I started doing a couch to 5k then stopped.  It was hard and I got shinsplints and so I climbed back on my eleptical.

And then my best friend Aura (writer friend), who is overweight, decided that we were going to start running.  She had been going to the gym with me and was trying to turn her situation around, and heck if she said she was going to run, who was I not too.  Having her run with me was the best motivation ever.  She’s not competative, and I am, so that can be a bit akward sometimes, but just knowing that she is trying along with me, really pushes me to keep going when I want to quite.

We ran our first 5K a few weeks ago and it was awesome and EPIC.  And I need to get back to running.  But it is something I don’t think I will ever stop doing now that I know I can.

I know that the first week of runnning even for 1 minute straight was hard.  But its about building yourself up to that level and keep on pushing past your comfort zones. And because it’s physical its easier to measure the progress.  But it reminds me every time I think of writing, that I need to put in that time to get better.  that sitting on my ass does not lead to results.  Well in writing, maybe yes if my fingers are on the keyboard.  But I have to do something about it, every day.

Want to participate in the blog tour?  Hop on over to Elena Johnson’s website:

15 thoughts on “NEVER SURRENDER!

  1. I’m with you about dreams. If you don’t have any, then what the point of existing. They’re what give your life meaning . . . as long as you pursue them and not expect them to magically come true.

    Awesome that you run. I love running. That’s when I get all my writing ideas. 🙂

  2. I’m in the blogfest as well!

    After reading your post, I like to think that we really are kindred spirits. You’re making an effort to write every single day to get better, which I admire. And hey, all of my first NaNoWriMo novels were pure crap. It took me years to edit the first one to a point where I was satisfied enough to put it up on iTunes. Year two is mid-rewrite, year four is out there somewhere in a horrible first draft edition, and years five and six are a mess. (Year three is never leaving my hard drive.)

    But you know what? Year seven was AWESOME. I’m thinking of actually querying this one. And you’re right: it gets better. That’s the only thing getting me through these days right now.

    I will be in line to read your WIP when it’s done! (I saw your ‘About Me’ page, and we write in the same genre. Year seven is young adult zombie apocalypse.) Thank you so much for sharing your story!

    1. Hi Emily,

      It’s always nice to meet fellow NaNoWriMo-ers or Wrimos. Ya’ll are my bread and butter. Long live the Zombie apocolypse. But only in book form!


  3. Never giving up means hell to the no on dodging obstacles and other things that a lot of people would quit before tackling. It’s nice to know that not only have you helped yourself because of this attitude, but also have helped your weight-challenged friend.

    Coolness all the way around!

  4. I used to go jogging a lot. I never truly loved it but I did like the results that being consistent gave me. I can’t anymore because of bad knees.

    1. I like having run more than actual running. But its a great stress bust on a bad day. just pushing yourself until you can’t go any further. its like physically exorcising your deamons.

  5. Stopping by from the blogfest…. As a runner (and writer) I love this post! Congrats on the 5k! There is such a thrill in running…races that is. The actual training can sometimes suck…a true testament to never surrendering. Good luck on your next run!

  6. I almost posted about writing and running-I ran a marathon in Feb. 2009 to raise $ for my cousin w/ leukemia, but then did something totally different. Glad you’re doing the Couch to 5k, lotsa my amigos are doin that also:)

  7. Even though writing and running seem like total opposites (mental vs physical), both require characteristics common to each. The biggest one the ability to push ourselves beyond our perceived limit. Kudo’s to you for achieving both goals! 🙂

  8. Good for you for your determination and persistence. I’ve both run and written, but somehow I don’t have it in me to do both at once…

  9. The two you listed are also two of my great loves. You have no idea how much I appreciated your, ‘I got a day job that I cared little for’ because that is currently my life. I work a day job, hate it, and look forward to my days off so I can write. Thank you for sharing and for validating my feelings 🙂

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