So let’s start off with some awesome news!!!
- I have started a new day job!! Hoozah. A Million times more awesome than the last one, same company, but different department.
- I went to World Fantasy Convention and had a BLAST!!! FREE BOOKS!!!!!
- I am doing NaNoWriMo again this year, and ML.
Now for the not so awesome part:
This year has been an extraordinary challenge for me, with a lot more downs than there feels ups. I’m not going to go into those details because it’s personal and this is a public space. I have been really stressed out, a little depressed and dealing with anxiety. I’m not all of these things all the time, but I am some of these things some of the time, and a combination of these things some of the time. So far it hasn’t threatened my ability to be a functioning human being, but it has impaired it. What I have really learnt though is that I am not superwoman. I can’t do everything all the time, with a positive spin on it. There is simply not enough time and not enough mental energy.
As much as I want to say yes to every single AWESOME idea that comes my way, this year has really taught me that I can’t. In fact it has taught me how to say no, and how to start cutting back. I need to get to a healthier place with myself. And the key for me to do that is to cut back. I need more me time and more mental space, and to not feel so panicked at a never ending to do list.
So what that means is that I am going to take a blogging hiatus. I am still on Goodreads, and I might pop up on twitter, and I might reblog some things on tumblr. But these are not priorities in my life. Blogging has been a priority in my life, or at least I have tried to make it one, and right now seeing that I haven’t blogged for the past month stresses me out. Makes me feel like I am dropping the ball. Twitter and goodreads and tumblr don’t stress me out as I have never committed to them on a full time scale. They have always been whatever, whenever kind of things. The fact is I don’t feel like I am offering quality content. I know what my dream blog here would look like, and right now this is not it. The time it would take to run this to the caliber that I want to is more than I can put in right now, and just good enough is not good enough for me.
Therefore, I am taking a break. A long break. I am going to focus on writing, and family and friends, and cut things back till I reach a healthier place. Once I do I may reconsider what I want to do with this space and what I can manage. But until then, there will be radio silence
I’m sorry to all of you who have followed me and enjoyed what I have been providing. But sometimes cutting things out is the only way to move forward. I wish you all the best in your life.